spring changes

Don't these pictures just make you ache to be there? Spring as almost here, I can hardly wait!

So, I lost my job yesterday. It was due to no fault of my own, in fact, everyone that I work with lost their jobs yesterday. It was a shock, a blow, and completely unfortunate. Maybe in time I will elaborate more on the circumstances of the situation, but now is not that time.



Today was the first day in YEARS that I woke up as an unemployed person. The timing couldn't have been better for me since I did not sleep a wink the night before. Jayda was sick, and I don't mean fussy, crying and coughing sick, I mean "I've-never-seen-so-much-vomit-in-my-life-SICK!" It was DISGUSTING, and tragic for Jayda. I felt bad for her, but I was also grateful that I was able to catch up on my sleep the next morning.



I can't begin to explain the complication of feelings that has gone into the loss of my job. So much of my identity was invested in what I did for my young clients. I also looked at work at a way to get a social outlet, a chance to interact with other adults, and I made some close and amazing friends because of it. In one day I lost access to all of that. It's been a little tough, I feel like that last two days have gone on for an eternity. There is a grieving process that happens with any loss, including the loss of a job. I have found myself and my co-workers needing to call, email and visit eachother, just to make sure that we're all okay. I know that I'm going to be okay, but it's a lot to lose, and a lot of change, it's just going to take some time.



On the flip side, I'm really looking forward to the change! I haven't been a stay-at-home mom before and I'm really excited about it! I'm happy that I get a few months to adjust to staying home with my kids so that when we move to Philly, it's not such a shock going from working, to staying at home, as weird as that might sound. I love waking up with my hubby, making breakfast as a family and spending so much time together. That's something that we haven't been able to do for a long time.



The timing of this situation really couldn't have been more perfect. In all honesty, I was really burnt out and desperate for a break. This will give me some much needed time from dealing with the harshness of working in the social service world. Also, Glenn has just been hired to work as a personal trainer at a gym, which means that we really shouldn't be losing a whole lot of money. I'm very grateful for that. It's incredible how things manage to work themselves out. Life is full of ups and downs and lots of change. But it's always exciting to find out what you have to learn and grow from each new chapter and experience. I'm so happy that this is all happening now that we are finally entering spring. The warmth, beauty, and growth of spring is such a boost as a reminder that changes can be so refreshing and detoxifying. It's a beautiful time of year to turn some pages and try something new.



I hope you all have a fantastic day today!